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Dear S,
16 years old huh! I know it's the age limit when you have to see doctor about what's going on with your body. Don't worry, you will find out soon, and nothing to be worried about it. Just think positive! You choose when you have your monthly guest, it's a win actually. You don't have to be afraid of getting pregnant easily. There's always positive side from something, you just have to see from different point of view. If you think just because we're hanging out every weekend, it doesn't mean we're friends forever. Life will teach you, real friends see a real you, not just hanging out or do things together. Real friends understand you for who you really are. That college's choice is not major decision, life will take you somewhere, not your major's choice. You do you, just follow where your heart wants to go. And those boy, if they don't want to spend time with you more than you wanted him to be, he's not worth it. Say YES for new adventures, don't ever be afraid of making mistakes. Never be afraid to say NO! Love, Future S #blogeverydayinFEB Instead made a guest to write random thing in my blog, I decided to post "a blast from the Past". It's one of my entry post in my old blog, maybe you will discover my old blog by reading or google these post. But here it is, for FUN! It's a post from February 24th 2010. Ok, it's coincidence or it's just meant to be. LOL. Today, I have a Bad Day / Bad Mood.. It started from the time I realize, that my agency forgot to give me my JW202/Admission Letter from my school, so I need to drove back for one hour to their place, just to get 2 pages of document. First, when I called them, they didn't believe it if they haven't given me, and turn out my documents was still on their desk, and she asked me if I want to took it or they can bring the document on the airport. First, I said airport, but that just made me more worried. I was afraid they would forget once again, and it would be too late. On Tuesday, we have dinner in our favourite dining place, with my favourite food, Sushi Tei.. We celebrate My friend's Birthday n My Farewell. One of my friend just got back from China, he finished his program and me just got started. But the first thing, he did was joking about my dyed hair. The jokes were not so funny, even until today. The jokes from the iphone vs BB, to lost virginity. Yape, they joke that I'm gonna lose it in China with not-so-handsome Korean Boy. Not so funny, guys. There is one guy, my frenemy. We always had a fight, basically he always joke not-so-funny-joke n do pranks to me. Basically on my mind : If you dare to joke about me, then dare to take joke from me. Teeth versus Teeth. But he is not, one time he joked about 'Lost-virginity' with me, I don't know it's kind of topic he like, and then I'm angrily curse to him. "Don't you dare joke about it. It's not funny, then how about, i wish someday you will have a wife who was once prostitute!" The result is he didn't talk to me for one semester. *sigh* Not just about dirty joke, when I have my birthday, he always asked me to treat him. And it continuously annoyed me until I treat him. But when he have his own birthday, he don't.. Believe me, for 4.5 years I befriend with him. Not once, he treat us, his friend. Birthday, First Salary, anything. And now, he already successful become manager, but he just still plain stingy. And after bitching about it, just yesterday, he treat us movie tickets to "Wolfman". All of us just shocked, with our jaw hanging on. One time, I told my brother and he said to me, "If I were you, I won't treat him since he never treat me. What's for?" The fight continue in Facebook, where we bitch each other. But since my mood has been low in the morning, and saw he started the fight through photo comments, and saw all of my friends just continue made joke about me-n-him fighting, it just made me burst. It's like someone press the red button. I bitched him and then in the end, I told him that he have pancy tongue, since he doesn't like to bitched back. Since then, he stopped all the joke, but in other hands, the rest of my friends just "add it more gasoline to the fire", they keep continue made joke about our fight. And I just realized, while locking away in bathroom, I disappointed with my friends, I'm going abroad to the country I hate, where I don't have friend yet, but they joke some silly things in my last third day in Jakarta. The melancholic side of me is turned on. I, myself also don't understand. Small fight or problem can make me burst into tears all night, but sometime bigger problem just made me laugh and silly. If I see myself and review the problem, it's kinda silly. One time, I have fight with my brother, because he cut the internet in my house, in the same time I was going to have skype conversation with my x. It made me burst and I cry all night until sleep. My friends think I'm all oversensitive, but I don't think I am. I see myself, that I was changing, before all the craziness, I'm a type of person that didn't care about everything, and then I have friends who over sensitive, and it just grewth on me. I'm tired to become a person that people stared for having crazy friend. When my friend act crazy, I was there to made it stop, and after three years, I also became tired of it. Have another friends that sensitive, made me more sensitive. I wish I could be my past version of me, that's what I wish for my resolution these year. And today marked to be the First Bad Day in 2010. I see my self, as glass of water. When I don't like about something, I keep it to myself, but actually it's like I add it more water in my glass. When the water is full and can't keep it anymore, that's when I burst into tears. Well it has passed, and it seems more silly, I already have Kit Kat, 2 slice of cakes and American Idol to cheer me up, and after these, nice good sleep. And shopping also made me cheer up, I have new jacket just been delivered today from Online Shopping, I also buy wallet and Laptop Bag for cheap prices, and brand new Converse. Yay!! It has been years since I have my last converse. Don't see me as type of girl who shopping when bad mood, but I really need those things for China. Actually, I fight between buy those things. I mumble about these friend who now I lost contact with. Funny thing about him, he ended up, married a widow, which is kind of funny, because he is a religious guy, who said virginity of a girl is a must, but hey, he ended up married a widow. I said to my friend, karma is a funny thing. He mocked me about losing virginity, but he ended up married a non virgin girl.
There's nothing wrong about it, for me. But in his religious state of mind, he do did cross his own line. Virginity is kind of a big deal in Asia, back then. We're in transition era, that have sex outside marriage is a sin in religion, but also becoming a lifestyle. I do still have my converse. I do know that I'm a type of woman that stack my emotion inside and will burst when I have enough. #blogeverydayinFEB |
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